突然好想你…

不知道昨晚是否下了雨, 今天一早醒来, 我的心却微微的刺痛…

4am on 13/08/09 Rashes Again..

Terrible, i woke up countless time at nite, i wonder is it because of the stupid car alarm system keep making noise hourly or isit i wake up naturally.. but was more irritating is i woke up yet again with block nose and also with rashes all over my body yet  again..Now what the hell is wrong with me now.. smoking is bad i quit it, why does this kind of thing happen to me when i do it..

woke up at 4+am to take a bath, research on cause of rashes, like the pharmist told me,no true cure, must find reason behind..can be allergies, can be becoz of environment(now staying in ah ma hse but before coming over i already gotten this prob) , maybe heat rashes, or maybe is stress.. i myself don’t know what is wrong with me.. haiz.. i hope its goes away fast, i don’t wan her to start worrying for me, i m so sorry about it. lets hope it subsides in the morning ..

12/08/09 random post at Old Canteen A

11 August , first day back to school, sch was horrible, don’t even understand what the profs are speaking they took it for granted that our pre-knowledge was hard coded to our brains.. i kind of wonder how i m going to get by this semester and predict just a passing grade for this sem.. 11 august happened to be another day i got sick again, dunno how many times le, sore and dry throat , blocked nose whole day and even rashes dun leave me alone.. thank god, my dear was around giving me much concern.. Last nite, sent her 4 msgs with no reply, kind of missed her and wondering what she is going,is she fine, i guess its a sick man kind of thing.. when u are sick u think of ppl who are dearest to u.. though i knew she was busy catching up with life, her friends and stuff , at that very moment i had this urge to call her to hear her voice, luckily for me she called me soon after.. silly girl apologising to me which i didn’t need..

Now my primary concern was her, she have gotten the spot, centre of my life, as though my life revolved around her. i know i have been meeting her quite often this 2 weeks, and hardly any more time she can squeeze out to do her stuff, be at hm , and even meet her friends, selfish me, maybe next week, probably next week, i will reduce on these regular meet-ups maybe only when she requests.. i don’ think i should take up so much of her time.. she needs time to rest, to do work, to meet family and friends.

12 August, i woke up, early, supposed to go down to Fusionopolis to meet yue khing but so happen he said he was meeting in ntu so i rushed down to meet him for my fyp.. my fyp is hard.. lol hope i can do it.. today is not to mention Fangting’s bday.. going to meet her up soon after she meet her fyp prof.. and wait for my darling to end lessons at 530pm and also i have asked to meet my Jex ppl for supper at 1030.. guess i fully utilised my first free day on my first week..

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想她与失眠。。

Yesterday night i touched down the airport, that concluded my Hong Kong trip.. One fruitful trip.. made alot of friends, explored alot of HK, leant more of myself and also get to know her.. Returning to SG also mean, another chapter or me and her would begin, first chapter in HK for 1 month then next chapter when we come back to sg. In HK, i could always meet her up whenever i wan to we are just separated by 3 floors, now back in sg the distants is from one end to the other end.. Not being able to meet or see her as often is a pain or a test i guess,  but i’ll i have to live with it.. Hope nothing goes wrong.. i miss her..

Alvin

Random thoughts..

Sometimes.. i really think i should just FO.. such a bother in this world and like taking up people’s precious time in life.. i just think i m too 烦！ Most of the time i always feel as though i m just like an ammo, expendable who cares..  dunno why i had such a thought but well wadeva.. beer and slp..

Fuck off Nivla….

just hope my emo hangover dun cross over to tml..

…gniws doom ome

my precious..

30th of july is a very special day… it was my girl’s bday, first i ever celebrated for her.. well alvin isn’t a very romantic person but i think i pulled it off.. i decided on meeting her at 2345 on 29th july to help her celebrate her bday.. beforehand i bought a bracklet at argyle centre, got flowers all the way back from shatin’s new town plaza(super AA lol) and also a bottle of her fav white wine(sweet german white wine).She was surprised as she thought only i was celebrating her bday, but actually we have planned this out with eunice helping out with the birthday cake..On this very day, i eventually popped the question once more, with her saying yes..

Then it was 30th july, in the morning we had classes, our last class for this GSS HRM.. there after we went to this gd dim sum plae with danny and friends, it was at mongkok area it had fantastic charsiew bao that tasted like charsiew in pineapple bun.. then both of us splitup with the rest to go to TST for a walk.. On the way to TST’s granville road which i wanted to bring her to the new shopping i found, we dropped by the legendary mido cafe that she longed to go.. their yuen yang and milk tea was fantastic, we tried the pineapple bun with butter which was damn nice and also the french toast with honey which was too sweet.. nice time over there.. We shopped over at TST granville road, helped her choose a dress ad hard a ramen dinner at tst.. wanted to find desserts but cant really find something new therefore we headed to pacific coffee for a coffee.. i hope she really hard a great bday, and many more to come(with me) ..

First Date 21st July 2009

Yesterday was 21st July 2009, which is also our first actual date alone, me and sylvia.. One of the best day ever..its start with classes, we suppose to buy tix for the rest of the people for tml’s harry porter show.. then actually we decided that we wanted to go kowloon since we have not been there but just when we are heading eunice and friends actually called ask asking where we are and asked us to go to olympic station walk walk.. so we tagged along.. well as my dearest was hungry and me too, we decided to have our early dinner since lunch at sch was horrible..

we had squid ink spaggedies at Spaggedies house and also pizza, very nice setting food was that fanastic but my date was.. hehe..We decided to meet the rest at tung chung later since we are having our dinner.. My girl was so smart, she shifted them away since they wanted to hve dinner at 730pm but we already had ours so we said we going back on our own.. then on it was our time.. only 2 of us..

We got sick of tungchung so we decided to explore else where like sunny bay.. then we saw this bus going towards discovery bay.. shh.. dun tell anyone.. no one noes we went there, it was a nice place looks like a chalet place at eastcoast there is alfesco dining and chill our bars at the beach area.. ah pekish we bought drinks and rest on the chairs at the bay, one nice uncle actually give us his free complimentary tickets for the ferry ride to central.. must really thank the uncle.. we had a great moment just the two of us and we stay there until it was like 1030.. so we boarded the ferry towards central.. well too bad we have got a project meeting we we pushed backuntil 12 so we took a cab from the central pier back to sch.. it wasour first date, first date aways from sg and somewhere we didnt even noe in HK..

Quiting them is hard but quiting you is even harder..

Tuesday is my first exams well though exam stress is kicking in, but thats not i what i m more worried about now..

it may seem like i have the ability to talk, but some stuff i just dunno how to put it across, this may well be the reason for this blog.. finding ways and means to solve this mysteries and problems between the 2 of us isn’t a small thing but i want to try to eliminate the minor ones first.. I truly know how much of a vice i m and how people who perceive me to be, personally it didn’t occur to me that i need to explain to anyone but u, but if these habits is standing in our way i guess i have to resolve them.. Quiting them is  hard but quiting you is even harder.. i took a long hot bath just now, think it all over, these bad habit is the least i could do to help clear the obstacles.. Soccer betting is easiest of all since i m usually the one just supporting lenzy on it.. smoking is one of the hardest, i know how much it hurts my health and how much it hurts that u say u dun mind, but i mind.. This pack may well be my last, i asked myself if i had got you why do i need it.. I just need some time, give me some time and i will prove it..

it all comes back to.. Quiting them is hard but quiting you is even harder.. harder than what i can imagine..  dun need u to give me anything because giving me the chance to give u my everything is good enough on my part.. 因为爱，很简单。。

Speechless..

“Your love is magical, that’s how I feel
But I have not the words here to explain
Gone is the grace for expressions of passion
But there are worlds and worlds of ways to explain
To tell you how I feel

But I am speechless, speechless
That’s how you make me feel
Though I’m with you I am far away and nothing is for real
When I’m with you I am lost for words, I don’t know what to say
My head’s spinning like a carousel, so silently I pray

Helpless and hopeless, that’s how I feel inside
Nothing’s real, but all is possible if God is on my side
When I’m with you I am in the light where I cannot be found
It’s as though I am standing in the place called Hallowed Ground

Speechless, speechless, that’s how you make me feel
Though I’m with you I am far away and nothing is for real

I’ll go anywhere and do anything just to touch your face
There’s no mountain high I cannot climb I’m humbled in your grace

Speechless, speechless, that’s how you make me feel
Though I’m with you I am lost for words and nothing is for real

Speechless, speechless, that’s how you make me feel
Though I’m with you I am far away, and nothing is for real

Speechless, speechless, that’s how you make me feel
Though I’m with you I am lost for words and nothing is for real
Speechless

Your love is magical, that’s how I feel
But in your presence I am lost for words
Words like, like “I love you”. “

I always feel time runs so much faster whenever i m with you, hoping time would stop the moment u are beside me nothing seems more real. This maybe a joke to anyone else, but deep down inside myself i now how much i m serious about this and how much i willing to put in.. I do understand how much faith u have in love, but maybe if u give both of us a chance, maybe we won’t find forever love but i m sure i would shower you with lots of love..  i this this is definitely more than a summer infatuation they would think, i ill try harder to prove u that.. i know i m not a patient person, but for this i will wait on..

Last nite i slept thinking of u and me at 430a.m., this morning i woke up at 10.30a.m. still thinking of u.. take time, and i’ll be waiting just around thecorner, if u asked for me,i would always stay around u..